Sunday, 6 July 2014

Scarlett

5th June 2014
Scarlett's 16th birthday.

I love watching her grow. Anticipating the future, the adventures we will be able to share now she's finished school forever.

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

24/52

"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."
Queenie- On a boiling hot day she insisted she'd need mittens.
Jarvis- He had a super brilliant time meeting Josie. I LOVE this photograph of them!

Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

23/52

"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."
Queenie- A roadside break with her baby Flora.
Jarvis- He is so snuggly.

Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

Saturday, 28 June 2014

Memories


My family home is for sale. I lived here from the age of ten to nineteen. When we moved in it was a boring guesthouse. Over the years it's been worked on and turned into a beautiful place with a big heart. My mum is a fantastic home maker. I've been capturing some farewell snaps each time I'm there. I want to be able to show them to Jarvis and Queenie, to tell her about when she used to insist on people walking up and down the stairs with her, all three floors of them. About when we were younger and used to sit on the high fence at the back and call out to people walking by. About the way I decorated my room as a teenager, walls caked in paintings, torn-out editorials and Polaroids, a self indulgent shrine to my emotions and crushes. About that first summer we lived there and we'd sunbath on the little roof at the back of the house, giving each other henna tattoos and braiding our hair with beads.
This house has watched each of us grow from girls to women. The walls creak with secrets overheard. It holds many stories. First loves, broken hearts, fits of giggles, tears and rage. 14 Christmas' have passed, 98 birthdays, hundreds of bedroom swaps and sister sleepovers. Too many all-nighters before art deadlines (this house has seen some incredible patience and generosity from my parents!). One wedding, maybe two*. So.much.toast.. For breakfast, lunch and dinner, piles of it made for friends after school, hoards churned out after a night out, dripping with butter. The kitchen is the focal point of the home, a beautiful space with an AGA at the centre. Used for baking, roasting, toasting, drying, sitting, lingering. I grew accustomed to it's quirky ways and found adjusting to a conventional oven such a challenge!

One day I hope we can own an AGA for our family home. That I can create a space that our children love as much as I do this one. That holds good memories and grows with us, a home with a soul.

*India's getting married in September!!!

Saturday, 21 June 2014

22/52

"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."

Queenie- A little girl on a big beach.
Jarvis- He was so fantastic the whole journey to and from Edinburgh this week.

Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

21/52

"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."

Queenie- Best friends in navy. She loves him!
Jarvis- And he loves her! 
Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

Monday, 9 June 2014

20/52


"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."

Queenie- Splashing in puddles with those trusty wellington boots.
Jarvis-  A bald head peeking out from behind his dad. 
Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

Monday, 26 May 2014

19/52

"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."

Queenie- So happy. Running and shouting in excitement, during a sunny walk with her Grandma.
Jarvis- The only photograph I took of him this week, we were so busy. Such a contrast to the multitude of photographs we have of Queenie at this age.

Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

Sunday, 11 May 2014

18/52

"A portrait of our children, once a week, every week in 2014."

Queenie- My mum's been sorting through old stuff and found this cardigan that a friend made for me when I was her age.
Jarvis- A rare moment of contentment on his back. 

Joining in with Jodi's 52 project.

Letting go

Crumble for dinner and weeping wild flowers

So, I'm adjusting to being a mother of two. Somedays better than others. Yesterday not so good. Liam's back to work and it's always worse when he's on late shifts, which I hate.

I went with it yesterday afternoon, let go of what I think I am supposed to be as a mum. We sat in bed and watched Mary Poppins then had apple crumble for dinner. Some days it's ok to go for the easy option. We had lots of cuddles and she lay her head on my knee while I fed Jarvis for the kazillionth time that day. I stroked her hair and she kissed her brother with more patience than I can muster at the moment. This morning as I look back on my day, I pray for more of that, for patience, and for joy, love and kindness.